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     Chodiganji Junior Artist Username: Chodiganji Post Number: 266 Registered: 09-2009 Posted From: 123.176.35.132 Rating: N/A |
SHE: Today I saw him in the food court. He was there with two girls and was chatting, laughing, cracking jokes. He seemed to enjoy the company. Is he also a typical boy who just wants to have as many girls around him as possible? Is he a typical flirt? Does he want me also to get included in that group for showcasing? Probably the two girls were just good friends of him. At least I hope so. Please god please let those be his sisters or just friends, nothing else. HE: Since that evening thing has happened, I have left staring at her. I donât know but some inner voice is telling me to keep away. I am not a street walking beggar to be treated like this. She might consider herself whatever she might think of. She is beautiful, indeed, but that doesnât mean she can insult me like that. I have sward not to look at her again anymore and just to avoid her looks.But I canât stay like this. I just like her and want to be with her. She has committed a mistake, but wasnât that a bit natural? She doesnât like me and doesnât want to encourage my feelings about her. Simple isnât it? Thatâs it. A complete halt for my feelings and my dreams, but I donât think I can manage not to have even a look at her. Will I be able to do it? There is some saying, âOh god, change the situation around me to favor me. At least give me the strength to change it. If I canât change it, at least give me the strength to bear it.â Oh God, please listen to me. GOD: You donât remember me when you are happy or contempt do you? When there is a problem or a really difficult situation, then you start remembering me or praising me donât you? I still wonât interfere here. My world is a complex entity with each and every thing or event properly planned for some specific future as well as past reason. Why should I interfere and break the balance of all these systems myself? Date: 27-Feb HE: I was working in the night shift for the whole week so had to travel by cab rather than bus. I used to work from 4.00 p.m. to 2.30 a.m. so naturally I had lost contact with almost all people working in dayshift except for my teammates who would surrender the charge to me while leaving for the day. For the whole week I didnât travel by bus. Obviously didnât see her. She works in the adjacent building only, but I donât know where her cubicle is located exactly and anyways even if I would be knowing that, I donât think I have that much guts to approach her. For almost a week I didnât see her, but I didnât feel any desperation to see her. I was unbelievably aloof in this case. Was it the effect of that evening incidence? Date: 28-Feb HE: Today, the office had planned to screen a movie in the campus. I had seen it but thought of enjoying it with friends in the open air. I took the permission for an hour from my boss and went for that. The dialogues were not much audible on the lawns, but it was fun to watch the movie in an open air theatre like that. I was to leave the place to return to my cubicle and turned around when I saw her standing there just around 10 feet away from me. I donât know why but my heart started speeding a lot higher than even Schumiâs Ferrari. She just smiled at someone in the crowd at my back, tried her best not to look directly to me and just left the place. I stood there for a minute or two just wondering what had happened. Why did she smile? Did she feel good that I am still in the same company only or she didnât even take notice of my presence and really smiled at someone in the crowd at my back? But we were so close that it was practically impossible for her to just ignore me. SHE: I saw him today, at the movie screening. Thank god he is still working with this company only. I thought of smiling at him and greeting him. I was so happy to see him, I wanted to ask him where he was for so many days, whether he was not well, had he changed his house or was he using bike for the transport, but again I didnât ask a single question. I stayed calm. I didnât want to embarrass him again. I donât know what I feel about him, but somehow whenever I see him, I do feel better. I hope he starts travelling by bus again. Everyday we can see each other in the morning and wish each other a very good morning without any words or smile but just with a plain look. To be continued... Source : http://tinyurl.com/38oljgj |
